I, Icy Flame, a twenteen-something SSB guy, used to dig lots of girls and still am attracted to some of them from time to time. I'm still dreaming that
Hayley Williams will come over and propose to me. However, I don't wanna be in a romantic relationship with a girl just yet. I have no intentions to use the relationship (and the girl, for that matter) as a way to save my ass and to cover up my sexuality. I wasn't raised to become a heart-breaker and, given my insecurities as far as my physical features and overall manliness are concerned, what nerves do I have should I break some girl's heart.
I have some male crushes before and now am attracted to many different kinds of guys. I'm fixated with
baldies, first and foremost. But look, I'm not ready to be in a serious relationship with any guy, given my background and my overall maturity level. Moreover, I have my personal demons to slay. While from afar I dig them, truth is I feel insecure whenever eye candies and hunks come my way. It's like I know they're enticing and at the same time am aware that they're "untouchable". Also, based on my personal experience, geeks don't live in the same sphere as jocks, pretty boys, and their cohorts. I remember myself only existing in the social circles whenever exams are coming up. I can't recall as well having a certified poster boy or an athletic guy as a friend.
Yes world, I'm not straight. Heck, I don't really know what I am. And I concede - I don't even know where I'm headed eventually. So now, let me take this path of exploration and discovering - I wanna learn and realise, meet and connect, live and love (eventually).
