Desire..

Title: I Still Remember
Artist: Bloc Party
Album: A Weekend in the City

I, I still remember
how you looked that afternoon.
There was only you.

You said "it's just like a full moon".
Blood beats faster in our veins
We left our trousers by the canal
And our fingers, they almost touched

You should have asked me for it
I would have been brave
You should have asked me for it
How could I say no?

And our love could have soared
Over playgrounds and rooftops
Every park bench screams your name
I kept your tie

I've gone wherever you wanted

(I still remember)

And on that teachers' training day
We wrote our names on every train
Laughed at the people off to work
So monochrome and so lukewarm

And I can see our days are becoming nights.
I could feel your heartbeat across the grass.
We should have run.
I would go with you anywhere.
I should have kissed you by the water

You should have asked me for it
I would have been brave
You should have asked me for it
How could I say no?

And our love could have soared
Over playgrounds and rooftops
Every park bench screams your name
I kept your tie

I would let you if you asked me

I still remember

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Lukso ng dugo indeed when I first heard this song in NU 107 3 years ago. While this song is on repeat in my iPod, I can picture myself strolling through a place full of memories, yet I'm aware that those images flashing in my head will remain mere mementos of what have occurred. Bittersweet, aye?

I came across some articles saying that the lyrics is based on Bloc Party lead singer Kele Okereke's personal experiences as someone who desires another guy. While he didn't confirm anything about his sexuality, he just said something like "it's about desiring someone you can't really have". And in one particular article I read, I love the question he posed: "When was the last time you heard an interesting pop song that actually tried to give you a different perspective on desire?"

Be this bromantic or something more than that, you be the judge. As for me, I just love how the lyrics of this song gives words to those unspeakable feelings and yearnings I've been through before my self-acceptance. Right now, I can more or less concur that "there are alternative ways of behaving, of living one's life."